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I still remember the first time I heard the phrase: “We are a blame free culture here.”
It was during orientation. The manager said it with so much confidence that I believed it. I thought: Finally. A place where mistakes are seen as lessons. A place where people lift each other up instead of tearing one another down.
But it didn’t take long for me to realize those words were only words.
The first time something went wrong, the same people who promised a blame free culture were quick to point fingers. And the finger landed on me.
The Moment It Hit Me
One shift, I was under pressure, juggling too many tasks. A small mistake happened. It wasn’t dangerous, it wasn’t permanent, but it was enough to cause a stir.
Instead of asking “What happened?” or “How do we fix this?” the first question was: “Who did it?”
The air changed. All eyes turned toward me.
I felt my stomach sink. My hands went cold. My worth shrank to the size of that mistake. That was the day I understood what it feels like when “blame free” only exists on paper.
When Words Don’t Match Actions
I noticed how this culture affected everyone:
- Fear replaced honesty.
- Trust disappeared.
- Ideas stayed hidden.
- Anxiety became a silent coworker.
Instead of building us up, the “blame free” promise broke us down.
How I Protected Myself
I couldn’t change the system, but I could protect my peace. Here’s what helped me:
- I stopped letting blame define me. I wrote down the things I did right each day. I reminded myself that mistakes are part of growth.
- I documented everything. Emails, conversations, notes—I kept records. It wasn’t paranoia, it was self-protection.
- I leaned on the right people. Not everyone was toxic. A few colleagues understood. Coffee chats and small reminders like “You’re not alone” made a big difference.
- I learned when to speak up—and when to stay quiet. Not every battle was worth my energy. Silence sometimes kept me safe.
- I guarded my mental health. Journaling, talking to a mentor, stepping outside for fresh air—these became my lifelines.
The Hard Truth
A real blame free culture means leaders admit mistakes too. It means systems change after errors, not just people being punished. It means you can speak without fear.
Anything less is just a slogan.
Finding Strength Beyond Empty Promises
I asked myself: Am I going to let this system break me?
The answer was no.
I reminded myself: I am more than my workplace. My worth doesn’t come from blame—it comes from who I am and how I show up each day.
Eventually, I chose to leave. Walking away wasn’t weakness. It was wisdom. It was choosing peace over promises that never matched reality.
My Daily Ritual for Survival
- Morning: Whispered, “I will not carry blame that isn’t mine.”
- During Work: Took notes, limited gossip, paused to breathe.
- After Work: Reflected, journaled, and gave myself one act of kindness before bed.
Closing Reflection
When “blame free” is just a word, it hurts. It feels like betrayal. But strength doesn’t come from posters or policies. It comes from within.
You can still protect your energy. You can still choose growth. You can still build resilience, even in broken systems.
Because true freedom is not waiting for others to keep their promises—it’s creating your own peace.
Resources
- Under Pressure: Managing Stress and Mental Health in the OR
- Mind, Work and Stress
- Mind, Word and Stress
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